"He smiled understandingly-much more than understandingly. It was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it, that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced--or seemed to face--the whole external world for an instant, and then concentrated on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just as far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in yourself."
Time goes by so quickly as you get older. When you're four years old, all you have to compare time to is within those four years. As you grow older, you have more time to look back on and compare, and in return time goes by quicker. I think at certain times this is good, certain times this is bad, sad, thought provoking, ... I could go on and on. Time brings emotions. Time brings thoughts of the past and thoughts of the future.
------ It has been four years since I graduated from high school. Many of the classmates I graduated with are now graduating from college. It is actually slightly depressing and slightly motivating. The fact that I dropped out of the university I was attending after high school, is a more complex situation that it seems. A lot of people drop out of school because it is too hard or they just don't want to go, or other reasons along those lines. When I was attending college, I just moved out of my grandmothers house, I was paying for everything on my own and most of my classes were all lab classes. Having an art major is ridiculously expensive. I'm not making excuses I just could not handle the bills on my own and was (and still kind of am) scared of loans. One thing I do believe though, is that school is not for everyone. I know plenty of very successful people who did not attend any college. I do plan on going back to school personally, I just don't think school is imperative for every person. Excuse me while I realize I'm beginning to ramble... Basically as we get older and see people you use to be on the same page as, now, entering a new chapter, it makes you want to get a tighter grip on your life and the direction it is heading.
"I FEEL INFINITE"
I'm actually in a really good spot in my life right now. I feel like I've learned so much, grown up so much, and become such a new person in the last year. I have so much more to learn and so much more growing up to do... and that will come in time and time will eventually come, but never end.
Umm if you haven't heard the new Death Cab CD, what are you waiting for?! It is epic.
I think one reason music has been such a big part of my life is that people are feeling what you are and it reminds us that other people can relate. Sometimes everything they say is everything you feel but didn't know how to say. Sometimes it is just the music you need to take you away...
"We accept the love we think we deserve."